“I have adhd, and I have been addicted to emotional gambling for 13 years… Every day, I get back things that I lost. No longer will this parasite take my life from me. I will prevail.”
This journal captures the reality of “emotional gambling”: reaching for the phone to soothe anxiety or boredom, and paying with time, attention, and identity. It charts a turn: replacing background noise with the sounds of the world, feeling dreams return, discovering that digital audio can drown out personal thought.
As you read, consider one question: what do you want to get back first? Two hours a day is 730 hours a year — enough to become competent at a craft, repair relationships, or simply rest.
Pair this with the 7‑day reset and the Attention Reset Contract.